I can't wait to see you again

I really miss you
not like in the way where i say it passively to start a conversation
i mean like
I'm lonely and have no one to talk to, someone to truly relate to on the level i did with you in the room
and this has been slowly draining my smiles
because no one i know actually warms my heart in its entirety
being with them our love is nearly empty and it ruptures my soul when i think this is the best i can do now
that though they may think i am a good friend, i think of them very little, as though the roles were reversed and i am the false friend
i can do nothing to remedy it but sit alone in my room to keep from lying to anyone
about how little i truly care about them
it makes me sick- how awfully little i care about people i am sure are great
and how little they love me in the end
it breaks my heart, what damms my tears but today they flow without end
which damns me